All, my life....i have one dream and for some reason, this dream puts me into the military. I've always wanted to shoot, to fly.....but the effects are devastating. From young, i've always wanted to be in the military squad. I don't know why, i don't know why. Why do i love war, why... maybe cause i love competing so much, that in war, u win u stand, u loose u die and that's the ultimate competition lvl. Maybe in my past life, i was in a war, maybe, i don't know...maybe that's why i keep getting these "images" of blood, bullets, old planes... when i sleep... maybe war is in my blood. I know war is bad, it kills.... i know...but i don't know why......