so accurate 1 ????? O_O

what is tat? -.-

I opened my MSN MESSENGER today, early.... i saw this msg

JOSH: kk
JOSH: depressed for wat?

I thought no one would bother, but at least i know now..there is one..
This
is
wat
i
call
a
TRUE
friend

for he has always been covering my back.

Commentator: Michael Jordan receives the ball, 5 seconds to go in the fourth quarter! Bulls trailing by a point! can he make it???! "EVERYONE watches in agony, EVERYONE is in high tension,"......tik tok tik tok, time counting down till the last second! he jumps to fade away! The buzzer rings! the ball is in the air! will it go in?????..................everyone looked down in sadness, sadly the ball did not went in.

Have u seen that happen? have u felt what he felt after that shot?

I have seen that happen, and i can truly feel what he felt.

I failed my family, i failed my friends, i failed my hopes, i failed my dream, i failed everyone.

I failed my self.

I have to say sorry, i do not want to give up, i want to try again.....but i can barely stand up from this..............

another fuked up part of my life

it's been a very very disappointing and setback week for me, my... sigh..i don't want type bout it. I am just looking forward to this coming paintball competition this sat. I hope we win so it would give me some inspiration. This is my... i don't even know the number of times i failed in my life. Falling from the tree always hurts, the number of times i cried this few days, fuked up man. I got no inspiration to do anything besides waking up 4 am every morning to play basketball. Only one chindian on the court who always challenges me and he always tells me not to give up, cause...he gave up and he is the gang business. Yes, i have frens in gangsters, selling vcd and all that shit, but i stay away from all the negative shit. He is a tremendous nice guy, he showed me his study results, he was a staright A student with tremendous talent in basketball, but...he doesn't have the financial support to futher his studies. If u are asking "y doesn't he get a loan?" simple, he is the mix of two minority race in malaysia, indian and chinese which rarely and hardly could get loans.

I am going through a very bad depression now. Very depressed... FML

HACKED POWNED

bout the post way below in which "I" wrote bout some1 that i admired, that is totally not me. I juz noticed, some1 hacked into my blog. I have changed the password, and i do not plan to delete that post cause.... i feel, that post is...sad... Anyways, for those of u out there, who is asking if i admire some1? yes, i do admire some1 . That's the most i would say.

unconsiderate asshole

Happened two days ago,

Was in the groove, in the zone, happy i was. Drinks be flingin, minks be swingin. HAPPY I WAS. Went to sut's hse to sign up the competition, which we are gonna be blowin on the 18th april. YE!. After all those lil chitty chatter, walked out of his condo. Closed the door and all a sudden i see this lil small flare droped at the speed of a torpedo 1 inch away from my left shoulder. When it hit the ground, lil sparks flew off and i saw it, a cigeratte. SOME MOTHA FUKA BITCH DICK ASSHOLE FKING INVERTED VAGINA OR DICKHEAD threw the ciggarette out of the window! ok, it didn't hit me, but guess wat. Wat IF!, some1 walked outta the hse carrying a can of kerosin? and the ciggarette dropped on it? BOOM!! we'll be seeing him sky high. Unlikely huh? it's ok, i'll give u another scope. Wat IF!, some1 intended to look up to the beautiful sky and he was in the spot where the cigarette is droping. Juz as he look up, the cigarette hits his eye! FKING CRAZY SHIT! THAT GUY IS BLIND FOR SOME IGNORANT ASS UP STAIRS! Let me give u another scope. Wat IF, some1 was carrying a baby, i'm sure there are babies in the condo. He or she is carrying it, then the cigarette dropped on the baby , burned a lil hole on the skin. U ppl know how sof their skin are. HOW CONSIDERATE IS THIS PIECE OF SHIT! i wanted to go up stairs, kik his door and push him off the window! MAKE HIM FEEL THE CIGARETTE ! FEEL ME BITCH !? right in his FACE! as i walked to the elevator , i was wondering..which floor did that cigeratte dropped from? Damn, guess i gotta let that SOB go. Not the SOB SOB crying fool! it's son of a bitch, like a witch that cursed his dick ditch!

i am sorry if my NO gives u an heart-ache. I can't possibly say yes when i am not capable of it, not that u are no good or wat so ever. I'm juz not rdy financially or mentally. Truly sorry, not now cause i am not sure where i'll be in a couple of months. Things are floating round me bout now. I am not as great as u think i am, all these jobs of mine are juz...... not my fulltime thing u know wat i'm saying. There is something i wanna do, i need to do, anyways, all those are juz side factors, the truth is, i have some1 else in my mind and in my heart. Wanted to tell u , but u walked away, nvr picked up ur phone but i know u will always be here, in this blog...

related to the post below

If i could hear the announcer saying, FROM DOWNTOWN MALAYSIA! 6 FOOT NONE! THE NUMBER 23! EDDY PUPPY!!! (m.jordan number)

I WOULD CRY WITH so much happy tears cause listen up! IT'S MY MAN IN the COURT rdy to cross u over with the saying "IN UR FACE"!